Actually, this is the number one thing that brings me down to poetry. If nothing else, poetry can handle distance. It's necessary. People on the other hand, well...
I'm not a good friend and I don't think I'll ever will be. Not in the sense of closeness anyway. It's because I don't care. I don't care to visit or inform about my life. I don't care to call or send check-up e-mails. These are little things that sustain any type of relationship: family, friends, romantic, whatever.
Or at least this is what's been told to me by many people.
I've read many goodbye messages and letters to me, but I never cared to write one to any one else. Most of the time it comes down to "so that's how it is" or "normal people communicate" or "you're a selfish asshole."
Actually, I wrote a goodbye once -- "if this is it, thanks for the good times."
What it comes down to is that I don't fight for any type of relationship. I'm really complacent. If someone says he/she doesn't want to talk to me, I take it face value and move on with my life. If I don't hear from someone for years I think to myself, "I hope he/she is doing all right." Contacting people crosses my mind, but I tell myself, "they're probably busy, I'm going to work on myself."
Poetry, the art form, can handle my complacency. Weirdly though I fight for poetry -- sending out to places, taking on debt to learn more, contacting editors for things, making sure I had dedicated writing time, spending three years at PCSJ, spending two years writing a poetry blog (roughly). I fight to stay connected to an art form. An art form.
I don't know why.